Friday 24 October 2014

Two Face

I first met Daniel three years ago. He had walked into my clinic without an appointment. And when he was refused an audience, he barged into my room.

“Please…” he said; his voice a weird mix of horror and resolve. Something about the voice shook my core. I couldn't ignore the plea in Daniel’s voice. As the security guard closed the door behind, Daniel simply crashed on to the couch.

“You got to help me doc. You got to get rid of him” Daniel’s terror stricken voice pleaded.

“Calm down…what’s your name?”

“Daniel…shut up” he suddenly screamed as he stood up hysterically.

“Excuse me?” I implored

“Its him…Damien”

“I’m sorry…is it Daniel or Damien?”

“The voice…that’s Damien”

“What voice?” I could see where all this was heading to.

As if on cue, Daniel’s eyes rolled up, revealing the eerie white. And he collapsed. I lay him on the couch and sat by his feet. He woke up an hour later.

“How are you?” I asked him as he slowly sat up. Daniel nodded tiredly.

“You can talk now?” Daniel nodded again.

Its then he told me his story. Daniel was being haunted by a voice only he heard. And although I had heard such stories a million times before, something about Daniel made me want to believe him. But a psychiatrist’s success depends upon his ability to rationalize creepy occurrences. I had to find out the reason behind Daniel’s nightmare. The voice belonged to someone called Damien, and it began 4 years ago. Unlike the other similar cases I had dealt with, Daniel’s was the most unusual. Unlike the others, the 23 year old Daniel did not have a troubled childhood, he wasn't abused as a child nor did he have a history of a psychotic attack. He in fact was smarter than most of the patients I had met. He repeated the same story under hypnosis.

Damien was more than a voice for Daniel. It was a parasitic entity, living within him, living off him. It started as an itch. Something irritating the back of his head. He scratched, the irritation grew. He saw a dermatologist who saw nothing peculiar. Then the itching grew. Almost as if something was clawing him from inside. And then one night, as Daniel slept, he felt something breathe on his neck; heavy, moist. Daniel ignored it, perhaps the remnants of a nightmare. But it happened again the following night. He woke up with a start. And there it was again. This wasn't a nightmare he had been dreaming. This was a nightmare he was living. A week later, Daniel heard the voice. A cold whisper. Daniel never slept again.

Damien began to take control of everything Daniel did. Daniel couldn't eat, he couldn't drink, he couldn't meet friends, he couldn't live! Damien egged Daniel on to do strange things. He wanted Daniel to harm people. One morning Daniel woke up with blood on himself. He immediately checked his body. It wasn't him. At noon, he discovered the dismembered body of his pet dog Luke in the garage. Daniel realized that it was only a matter of time before his worst fears came true. Somehow he managed to drag himself to my clinic that day.  

Our sessions did little to improve his condition. But they did not go beyond the second month. Last week, Daniel killed himself by jumping in front of a train. His death changed everything. My patient was dead. It was my failure. And then, yesterday, a letter arrived. It was from Daniel. What I read next shocked me beyond imagination.

“Alan, by the time you read this, I would be dead. I am sorry Alan. It was the only way. Damien made me do it. He said that he would leave me forever if I did it. He said that he had found the perfect body. You cannot even begin to imagine the horror I have gone through.
Forgive me, if you can.
Daniel”

As I tried to make sense out of the letter, a searing pain surged through the back of my head. It was as if my head would explode. I thought I would pass out. And then I felt something warm on my neck. As I turned around, a cold whisper called out to me…


“Hello Alan…”!

Monday 21 April 2014

Man's Best Friend!

Till 3 years ago, I used to be mortally petrified of dogs. And with good reason too. Sure the puppies looked cute and adorable and stuff. But then they grew up. And that’s when they scared the shit out of me. I have had my share of being chased by the canines for absolutely no reason at all. The prospect of a late night drive returning home from a movie or something would give me goose bumps. 

I guess this fear was instilled in me thanks to my brother’s friend’s German Shepherd who had the time of his life scaring the daylight out of me when I was 7 years old. More than once this devilish hound chased me around my brother’s friend’s house; once again, for absolutely no reason at all. Perhaps he thought that it was good sport. Perhaps he despised irritating 7 year old kids like myself. Come to think of it, it wasn’t really that difficult to understand. The dog with its ferocious fangs, was huge, almost like a wolf. And to him, I was perhaps, a tiny little rabbit.  

Anyway, the fear grew with me. And I was too proud to accept it. So when a good friend of mine brought a dog home, I stopped visiting his house altogether. Before that I used to frequent his home quite a lot. That afternoon I decided to give my friend a visit.

“I’ve got a surprise for you” he said with a smile.

Before I could ask him anything, a furry black figure came running towards me. It was a black lab. And before I knew it he had placed his paws on my shoulders. He was as tall as me. Perhaps even taller. And he was strong. I wanted to scream. I really did. In the words of Michael Jackson,

‘You try to scream but terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze as horror looks you right between the eyes,
You're paralyzed’

“Get it off me” I finally managed to say with whimper.

“Relax, he is just a baby. He wants to play with you” he said.

His words fell on deaf ears. I was sure that the dog had smelt fresh meat. And then without warning, he got down on all fours and started smelling my crotch. What the hell was he doing?

“He must really like you” smiled my friend again.

I thought he had lost his mind. His cute baby was sniffing my thing like a tasty treat.

“He’s just getting to know you” defended my friend.

“That’s the weirdest thing I have ever heard” I said with relief as the dog stopped sniffing me and sat down near my feet.

I never visited my friend’s home again. And the following years made no difference to my fear. It all changed one day.

***

4 years ago, I got a call from my brother.

“Come home soon. Got a surprise for you.”

I reached home excitedly wondering what surprise lay in store for me. As I rang the door bell I heard a yelp.

“Oh dear God! Please let me be wrong” I prayed as I realized what the surprise probably was.

The door opened and I was greeted by my mother who had a very prominent frown on her face. Behind her, stood my father grinning from ear to ear. He pointed to something on the floor, looking at my inquisitive gaze. On the floor sat one of the cutest Labrador puppies I had ever seen in my life. He was so tiny. Its brown fur glistened as it looked up at me. Those eyes! I fell in love with him that very moment.

He was my brother’s gift to my father, who unlike me, was very fond of dogs.

The first few days were very trying, not only for us but for him too. He was hardly a month old. He would cry every now and then. Perhaps he was missing his mother. And it would break my heart as he would sit in a corner, looking at all of us one by one, perhaps wondering what fate awaited him. Although mom agreed that the dog was indeed cute, she however, refused to attend to him. And worse was his habit of defecating anywhere he pleased in the house.

“I am not going to look after him. Trust me on that.” She said with finality in her tone.

Apparently she was bitten by a dog when she was young. So that’s where my fear for dogs came from. Suddenly, bringing the pet home seemed like the worst idea. We were clearly not ready for a pet.

And then one day, something beautiful happened. I returned home that evening to see my mom with the dog on her lap. And I saw in her eyes, love only a mother could show. She told me what happened that afternoon.

“I was sitting on the floor watching TV. And all of a sudden, he came up to me, put his head on my lap and dozed off. And I could no longer stay mad at him” she said with a smile. 

We decided to name this four legged bundle of cuteness – BRUNO. And that’s him.



Bruno got over his initial discomfort quite quickly. And pretty soon he became our darling. Even our neighbours grew fond of him. Every day kids from our society would come to our home and play with Bruno. And he too had a blast. He loved all the attention. And he was naughty to the hilt. And he had a gala time chewing up all our slippers and shoes. Here he is with his favorite slipper. 


His favorite pastimes however, were eating and sleeping; his tiny stomach always hungry for more. Bruno grew up quickly. Today he is 3.5 years old. And he hasn’t changed one bit. He is as naughty as ever. And he has grown up into a strong and handsome boy. The stray bitches lust over him while he conveniently ignores them. Even the other strays don’t mess with him and stay out of his path as he walks with authority during his walks. Although the sight of a cow every now and then does scare him quite a bit. 


And at times I feel that he is more human than the actual ones. I know he dreams. So many times I have watched him yelp and make running motions in his sleep. I wonder what he sees. Perhaps he sees himself chasing a squirrel up a tree. Or perhaps flirting around with some female friend of his.    


For us, he is still the baby he was 3 years ago. And while he has gotten over chewing the slippers, his new mode of mischief is to sleep on the couch when none of us is watching. Now whenever he wants to sleep on it in our presence, all he needs to do is give us his long droopy faced expression. And that does it. All our strictness goes out of the window. The couch is unofficially his property now. If one of us tries to sit on the couch whilst he sleeps on it, he will push and nudge us till we get up and sit someplace else. 



He hates bathing in winters and will slide under the farthest corner of the bed, hoping that we won’t be able to reach him. His face is a look of meek surrender when he realizes that we, in fact can reach him. His fur hair is all over the place and on every one of us. Its on my shirt, its on my trousers, its on my office bag. And at times its on my hair too; something which makes people ask “did you and your dog wrestle or something?”

Scolding him is pointless as the very next moment he does this.

He shares a special bond with my mom and dad. He is immensely possessive about mom. Every time I hug her, Bruno jumps up and pushes me away with his paws. 


Dad spoils him rotten. He gives in to Bruno’s every demand and tantrum. And at times I fear that Bruno would end up getting a higher share in my dad’s will. Dad speaks to him as he would with a kid. And Bruno too listens to him attentively, almost as if he understands him. Dad is the one looking after his daily routines. He wakes up at crack of dawn to take Bruno for his walks. He also takes him out for a ride in the car every morning. That’s Bruno’s favorite activity. The way he looks out of the window with his tongue hanging out…sometimes makes me wonder if he too loses himself in thoughts the way we do.



There are many things I would like to write about Bruno. But perhaps none would convey my feelings for him. A dog is perhaps the closest thing to perfection that God made. Bruno is perhaps the most wonderful and the most honest being I have ever had the good fortune of coming across. Every day he teaches me how to live life. Every day he gives me a reason to smile. Every day he greets me with the same enthusiasm every time I enter my home. Every morning he sits outside my bedroom, patiently waiting for me to wake up and give him a biscuit. And each day he teaches me the value of trust, understanding and innocence. He knows that he can bolt away to freedom every time the leash is off. But he chooses to stay. He knows that he can snap by bones in two with those powerful jaws, and yet he lets me irritate him when he sleeps. He knows his barks can scare the toughest of men, and yet he lets me scold him. All the life’s problems seem trivial when I come home. Because I know that no matter what, my buddy will be anxiously awaiting my arrival. The one who doesn’t judge me, or despise me, or hurt me. The one who smiles with his tail. My friend, my buddy, my Bruno! 

Monday 24 February 2014

The Unconquerable!



Ajit was afraid of the light. He was mortally terrified of it. He couldn’t place a finger on the ‘when’ or the ‘why’ he developed this fear. But he knew he would be destroyed the moment he stepped into the light. He preferred waiting in the dark, like a serpent. 

But now, as he lay on the moist soil waiting for a quick death, the light didn’t seem to bother him anymore. Perhaps it was the excruciating pain in his legs that made him overcome his fear. He had long abandoned the efforts to stand up on his feet. They were useless now. And he knew very well who was to be blamed for it.
***
“Die, you swine!” Pawan’s son had screamed in rage as he swung his weapon for the last time.

“Coward” bellowed Ajit as he crashed to the ground like a mighty tree. It was pain like he had never felt before. Perhaps, only the pain of being treated like a villain came close.
The impending death did little to quench his desire for vengeance. He couldn’t bear the humiliation any more. But there was very little he could do now.

“Look, how the mighty have fallen!” mocked his oppressor.

“You are enjoying this, aren’t you?” gasped Ajit.

“Every moment of it. Oh, you can’t even begin to imagine. Rot in hell, oh king of the world!” he laughed as he wiped the bloody sweat from his brow and flicked it on Ajit’s face. And he walked away leaving Ajit to die.
***
His words enraged Ajit further. He tried to get up again. It was in vain. The pain killed him, bit by bit. He felt foolish. He should have finished him when he had the chance. Searing pain shot through his body and he twitched violently. He screamed again. But no one could hear his lament.
How he wished Pawan’s son would have just killed him! He had left him worse than a corpse.

“Its only fair. Now all you can hope to do is repent” Shyam had said. Ajit laughed like a rabid dog at Shyam’s comment.

“Fairness. The word loses its essence coming from your wretched mouth. Do not forget, I could have crushed you like an ant long ago. You live because I chose to let you.” Ajit managed to put up a brave face. He was not going to give Shyam the pleasure of watching him die a broken man.

He wished he could just get enough strength in his legs to destroy Shyam – the forever smirking devil. He was the main conspirator after all. He coughed blood as his lungs gasped for air. His throat felt parched. But there was no one around to give him a few drops. 

He felt wronged. He cried at the injustice everyone had done to him. He had been a good man, a devoted son, a loyal friend, a powerful man, the greatest warrior. He had been his own master. He had made it this far despite being wronged by his own people. And yet he was subjected to this humiliation- by his family, his enemies, and now, by death itself.

“If only Vasu was here” he thought. Vasu – his only friend. He too had left him.

It was perhaps the impending death that made his entire life flash in front of his eyes. And his mind stopped at the moment which had caused this calamity today. Had he been wrong? He had insulted a woman. Perhaps the only moment he had erred. And if it wasn’t for his mistake, he would have been the one standing over the corpses of his enemies and laughing at them.

But if he really was wrong, why hadn’t anyone stopped him then? Why had everyone been silent? Perhaps he was right after all. A woman who lived with 5 men deserved to be humiliated. She deserved to be treated like a slave. She deserved to be disrobed. After all wasn’t she the one who had taunted him in the first place? Such audacity! Yes, the whore deserved to be punished.

As he closed his eyes he could hear himself laughing and mocking Draupadi. She was after all his servant. It was her duty to obey him, to satisfy him. She was his trophy. He had won her in all fairness. And he could treat her the way he wanted. He could see himself slapping his thigh and inviting her to sit on it. He could hear his brothers egging him on. He could hear Vasu, his dear Karna slap his back in encouragement. And he could hear Bheema bellow in fury as he vowed to smash those very thighs one day.

Bheema, the son of Pawan, had kept his promise. Goaded by Shyam, Bheema had broken the rules of battle as he smashed Ajit’s thighs with his mace. And he had finally managed to defeat Duryodhana, the unconquerable one – Ajit!

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Thursday 23 January 2014

A film called DRISHYAM



It’s a lazy winter evening. The climate is incredibly lethargic thanks to a light drizzle in the morning. Rains in winter!  Now I know why the movie ‘The Gods Must Be Crazy’ was titled so. All I want to do is go on hibernation. I share the plan with my wife who yawns and nods in agreement. And as if in response, I too yawn like a whale gulping shoals of fish. 


But good sense prevails and we decide to catch a movie instead. It had been a while since we saw a good film. Flooded by the likes of Krish 3s, Dhoom 3s, Rajkumars, and similar crap, my eyes thirst for sensible cinema. The last movie my wife and I saw was Shahid, almost 2 months ago.

 I would have watched Krish had Vivek Oberoi not given this iconic interview. 





With that smug look on his face, don't tell me that he doesn't deserve a public flogging.
After scanning bookmyshow.com, my wife and I zeroed in on Drishyam – a Malayalam film starring Mohanlal. Mohanlal is the guy who played the commissioner in Company. He is the one who says “ye jo kuch bhi ho reha he, ye therey khambany ki jaath he”. And also, “saanb ki dosthi jeb tek he teb tek he”. This guy in black;



And while people might make fun of his size or his poor Hindi, the fact remains that this guy can single-handedly kick the combined asses of Amitabh Bachchhan, Naseeruddin Shah, Om Puri, Aamir Khan, and any actor considered to be a good one, with his acting skills. And that isn’t an understatement. 


Anyway, the movie in question, Drishyam opened to rave reviews in Kerala earlier this month. And I would have probably missed watching it if it hadn’t been for the kind multiplexes of Ahmedabad who ensure to screen regional films on a regular basis.


The movie begins like any other feel good family drama associated with Malayalam cinema. Georgekutty (Mohanlal) is a cable TV owner in the small village of Rajakaat. He is passionate about cinema and spends most of his time holed up in his office watching all kinds of cinema. He has a beautiful wife (played by actress Meena) and two lovely daughters. How the elder daughter’s school trip threatens to destroy the peaceful life of Georgekutty’s family forms the crux of this nerve wracking thriller.


Some of the early scenes like when the stingy Georgekutty gets irritated on his daughters who keep failing to turn off the light bulb during the day, or how he rides a bicycle to work to reduce the petrol expenses are downright endearing.


And now the reason for this particular post. Drishyam is without doubt one of the best thriller films ever made in the history of Indian cinema. Rarely have I sat through a movie that is 3 hours long, without squirming in irritation. And rarer still are the times when I have remained on the edge of my seat watching thrillers, although Mumbai Police* – another gem from the Malayalam film industry comes quite close. 


The movie seems perfect. Right from the watertight script to the stunning locale to the brilliant actors to the smart direction by Jeethu Joseph, the movie stands tall.  It’s a movie where the screenplay had to be taut and once again the director delivers. Which brings me once again to the lead actor of the film – Mohanlal.


The past couple of years have seen a revolution in Malayalam cinema with new actors and newer directors with fresh and brilliant ideas taking the audience by storm. However, in hindsight, I feel that no other actor could have pulled off the role as convincingly as Mohanlal did. The man is simply amazing. Those of you who have seen him only in Company, haven’t even seen a fraction of his range as an actor. He surrenders to the character of Georgekutty. You feel his lust as he watches the video of ‘Aashik Banaya Apne’ song on cable. You feel his irritation as his family spends his hard earned money. You feel his desperation and his tension as he tries to save his family. The man once again proves that he doesn’t need a six pack to deliver hits.


I have always believed that the best cinema in India comes from Kerala followed by Tamil Nadu. And it is a pity that such brilliant stories and actors are bound by geographical and linguistic barriers. It is a pity that the major part of the country has never heard of Mohanlal, Mammootty, Thilakan, Murli, Prithviraj, Fahadh Fasil, Indrajeet and many more. And it is sadder that the rest of the world has not been introduced to the cinematic brilliance of Malayalam cinema. 


Perhaps I can do my bit to promote Malayalam cinema. Perhaps this post was a start. Perhaps I can convince my non- Mallu friends to maybe watch Drishyam for a change. I will translate the movie for free. Just try it out once before Jai Ho wipes it out of theaters as well as your memory. This is the poster by the way.




*Mumbai Police: This cop movie starring Prithviraj will surely knock your socks off with its bold and unconventional theme. Watch Prithviraj attempt something never done by an actor on screen before. Ah, the pleasure of watching brilliant cinema!